Why do I feel so depressed right now? I am working, I have a paycheck, I have a great boyfriend.. but I guess the family thing has taken a hit ehh? Of course when one part of your life gets better, the other half takes a dump. No time to breathe and take in the balance of perfection while all goes astray. Its like building that sand castle at the beach, you get one wall up and the other side plummets into the mote. How does one keep all four walls up? Adding too much water will sink the sand..but too little will crumble the walls..but how do you work with the delicate recipe of a sand castle when you need to keep up with the surrounding environment..disasters..tornados...hurricanes..when will I be able to hold up all four walls, look into the sunny blue sky and just breathe...?